I’m nicotine
i’m coming clean
i fooled the crowd
when i made it sound like i was more then ready

strike up the band
deprive my sleep
cause there’s no love like apathy
the bell that tolls rings loud enough
that it should have woke us up

i’m trying to find truth
in words, in rhymes, in notes
in all the things i wish I’d wrote
cause i feel like i’ve been losing you

i read your last entry
over-privileged kids keep crying
the need to fit in gets harder
when living life from a screen

old classmates please drop all your pens
don’t write a word cause i wont reply
and i’m not bitter, no its just i’ve ed that point in my life

i’m trying to find truth
in words, in rhymes, in notes
in all the things i wish id wrote
cause i feel like i’ve been losing you
each night it ends too soon
you don’t hold me like you used to
and your eyes look like they’ve seen too much
it's always some excuse
too tired, too obtuse
you look so far removed
this time i fear i’m losing you

i’m nicotine
i’m a cash machine
i’m the color green
and you should have seen the looks i just received

i need a reason to let go
an intervention, a lullaby
something to cure me please believe me

i’m trying to find truth
in words, in rhymes, in notes
in all the things i wish id wrote
cause i feel like i’ve been losing you
each night it ends too soon
you don’t hold me like you used to
and your eyes look like they’ve seen too much
its always some excuse
too tired, too obtuse
you look so far removed
this time i fear i'm just not getting through