It's hard to say the girl I love is gone
The world doesn't deserve what she woulda sung
Got doctors in my brain diggin through my skull
And now it feels like all my beauty's gone
All I ever wanted was a hit song
Buy a house for my parents
but that might be all gone
Everyone's gathered 'roud
crying something went wrong
There's a tumor in my brain
but it's not as bad as when I lost love

It's like when God build me up, he said
This life is gonna be too hard to live
Grew up poor in the Bronx
with a mother who only needs more
Give her more, God
Said I would have had a chance to get ahead
But I'd be hanging on by a thread
Fake friends, dark times, dead ends

God put my life on hard mode
God put my life on hard mode
God put my life on hard mode

When I was young they screwed me over
for my last dimes
I ran some great sucesses into land mines
And grief is something no one wants
to help ride
They saw how hard it really was
and then they slide
Jumping out of moving cars
cut scars across my arm
I made it pretty far
that's just not far enough
I can't breathe
when I see singers singing on tv
That should be my baby
That's bout the time I'm drinking
Yeah, yeah, yeah

It's like when God build me up, he said
I'll give him strength for the life ahead
I'm okay, dispite all of this pain
or the hole in my brain
I'm still standing
Yeah, I always pray for a break
And I've almost been at heaven's gates
How much more can I take

God put my life on hard mode
God put my life on hard mode
God put my life on hard mode

I will not die, but live
And proclaim what God did
God put my life on hard mode
I will not die, but live
And proclaim what God did
God put my life on hard mode

God put my life on hard mode
God put my life on hard mode